Saturday, November 30, 2024
This one centered on the idea of gratitude and was more like an ecstatic state than a mystical or religious experience. I started thinking about what a wonderful thing it is to feel grateful to people who have helped you. Not indebted, but just thankful for doing things for you because it is in their nature and/or is their job.
I began to think about getting little Christmas presents to hand out to people at the clinic and other places. Some gesture that shows I know I should be grateful.
During all of this the physical stuff I sometimes experience was getting stronger and stronger. The feeling of vibration, a sound like cicadas inside my skull (but at a lower octave) and of course the usual loss of feeling and detachment from my body.
For a while I know I was sitting there with my mouth slightly open, breathing, looking a bit upward, and feeling this ecstatic feeling like a holy but invisible light was streaming down on me. It was a great feeling and the line “when you’re high you never/ never want to come down” from “Welcome to the Jungle” kept recurring in my thoughts. Like I often do, I wished I could just stay like that forever, that heaven must be something like that but with other people/souls involved in a symphony of ecstatic love, that my body, my senses, and the world was just a thick, fetid mire and I wished my clean and pure thoughts and being did not have to descend again to be embedded in my body and the physical world.
This was the first time I really felt like I could understand why someone would pay to take Ketamine. This time the feelings were more good, positive, and joyful than any other time I have taken Spravato. Anyway, inevitably I had to come down.
So, I have had a mystical experience, a religious experience, and now a spiritual experience. What’s next? An out-of-body experience?
Black Hole Radiation 