In my case, no news is usually not good news. If you don’t hear from me for a while it’s not because I don’t need help and encouragement, it’s because I don’t have the desire or energy to give you a call. And after all, why rehearse the same gloomy, pessimistic crap over and over again?
The good thing about having a blog that nobody reads is that possible future readers will not have to wait 2 weeks between posts. They won’t really register the vanishing act, because from their perspective it barely happened.
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Feeling like writing something is a sign of improvement. I can’t count on anything after the last few weeks of hell but I’m going to avoid pessimism as much as I can.
My dosages were adjusted 5 days ago. Maybe that actually worked, and it will actually last. We’ll see.
Why does it feel self-indulgent to talk about my illness? I guess because it is the same garbage every time. But just remember: if you are tired of hearing about my depression, imagine how tired I am of experiencing it.
Black Hole Radiation 